Lois

When I came to the log house by the Spring Waiontha, lantern in hand and my packet tucked beneath my arm, it was twilight, and the starless skies threatened rain. Road and field and forest were foggy and silent; and I thought of the first time I had ever set eyes on Lois, in the late afternoon stillness which heralded a coming storm.
I had with me, as I say, a camp lantern which enabled me to make my way through the thicket to the Spring Waiontha. Not finding her there, I retraced my steps and crossed the charred and dreary clearing to the house of logs.
No light burned within; doubtless this widow woman was far too poor to afford a light of any sort. But my lantern still glimmered, and I went up to the splintered door and rapped.
Lois opened it, her knitting gathered in her hand, and stood aside for me to enter.
At first, so dusky was the room that I perceived no other occupant beside ourselves. Then Lois said: "Mrs. Rannock, Mr. Loskiel, of whom I spoke at supper, is to be made known to you."
Then first I saw a slight and ghostly figure rise, take shape in the shadows, and move slowly into my lantern's feeble beams---- a frail and pallid woman, who made her reverence as though dazed, and uttered not a word.
Lois whispered in my ear:
"She scarcely seems to know she is alive, since Cherry Valley. A Tory slew her little sister with a hatchet; then her husband fell; and then, before her eyes, a blue-eyed Indian pinned her baby to its cradle with a bayonet."
I crossed the room to where she stood, offering my hand; and she laid her thin and work-worn fingers listlessly in mine.
"Madam," I said gently, "there are today two thousand widows such as you betwixt Oriska and Schenectady. And, to our cause, each one of you is worth a regiment of men, your sorrows sacred to us all, strengthening our vows, steeling us to a fierce endeavour. No innocent death in this long war has been in vain; no mother's agony. Yet, only God can comfort such as you."
She shook her head slowly.
"No God can comfort me," she said, in a voice so lifeless that it sounded flat as the words that sleepers utter, dreaming of trouble.
"Shall we be seated outside on the door-sill?" whispered Lois. "The only seat within is on the settle, where she sits."
"Is this the only room?"
"Yes-- save for the mouse-loft, where I sleep on last year's corn-husks. Shall we sit outside? We can speak very low. She will not heed us."
Pity for all this stark and naked wretchedness left me silent; then, as the lantern's rays fell on this young girl's rags, I remembered my packet.
"Yes, we will sit outside. But first, I bring you a little gift----"
She looked up quickly and drew back a step, "Oh, but such a little gift, Lois-- a nothing-- a mere jest of mine which we shall enjoy between us. Take it as I offer it, lightly, and without constraint."
Reluctantly she permitted me to lay the packet in her arms, displeasure still darkening her brow. Then I set my lantern on the puncheon floor and stepped outside, closing the hatchet-battered door behind me.
How long I paced the foggy strip of clearing I do not know. The mist had thickened to rain when I heard the door creak; and, turning in my tracks, caught the lantern's sparkle on the threshold, and the dull gleam of her Oneida finery.
I picked up the lantern and held it high above us.
Smiling and bashful she stood there in her clinging skirt and wampum-broidered vest, her slender, rounded limbs moulded into soft knee-moccasins of fawn-skin, and the Virgin's Girdle knotted across her thighs in silver-tasselled seawan.
And, "Lord!" said I, surprised by the lovely revelation. "What a miracle are you in your forest masquerade!"
"Am I truly fine to please you, Euan?"
I said, disturbed, but striving to speak lightly:
"Little Oneida goddess in your bridal dress, the Seven Dancers are laughing at me from your eyes; and the Day-Sun and the Night-Sun hang from your sacred girdle, making it flash like silvery showers of seawan. Salute, O Watcher at the Gates of Dawn! Onwa oyah! Na-i! A-i! Lois!" And I drew my light war-hatchet from its sheath and raised it sparkling, in salute.
She laughed a little, blushed a little, and bent her dainty head to view her finery once more, examining it gravely to the last red quill sewed to the beaded toe-point.
Then, still serious, she lifted her grey eyes to me:
"I seem to find no words to thank you, Euan. But my heart is-- very-- full----" She hesitated, then stretched forth her hand to me, smiling; and as I touched it ceremoniously with finger-tip and lip:
"Ai-me!" she exclaimed, withdrawing under shelter. "It is raining, Euan! Your rifle-shirt is wet already, and you are like to take a chill! Come under shelter instantly!"
"Fancy a man of Morgan's with a chill!" I said, but nevertheless obeyed her, set the lantern on the puncheon floor, brushed the fine drops from thrums and hatchet-sheath, rubbed the bright-edged little axe with buck-skinned elbow, and wiped my heavy knife from hilt to blade.
As I looked up, busy with my side-arms, I caught her eye. We smiled at each other; then, as though a common instinct stirred us to caution, we turned and looked silently toward the settle in the corner, where the widow sat brooding alone.
"May we speak freely here, Lois?" I whispered.
She cast a cautious glance at the shadowy figure, then, lowering her voice and leaning nearer:
"I scarcely know whether she truly heeds and hears. She may not-- yet-- she may. And I do not care to share my confidences with anyone-- save you. I promised to tell you something about myself.... I mean to, some day."
"Then you will not tell me now?"
"How can I, Euan?"
We stood silent, thinking. Presently my eyes fell on the rough ladder leading to the loft above. She followed my gaze, hesitated, shot a keen and almost hostile glance at me, softened and coloured, then stole across the room to the ladder's foot.
I lifted the lantern, followed her, and mounted, lighting the way for her along low-hanging eaves among the rustling husks. She dropped the trap-door silently, above the ladder, took the lantern from my hand, set it on the floor, and seated herself beside it on the husks, her cheeks still brightly flushed.
"Is this then your intimate abode?" I asked, half-smiling.
"Could I desire a snugger one?" she answered gaily. "Here is both warmth and shelter; and a clean bed of husks; and if I am lonely, there be friendly little mice to bear me company o' nights. And here my mice and I lie close and listen to the owls."
"And you were reared in comfort!" I said with sudden bitterness.
She looked up quickly, then, shrugging her shoulders:
"There is still some comfort for those who can remember their brief day of ease-- none for those who never knew it. I have had days of comfort."
"What age are you, Lois?"
"Twenty, I think."
"Scarce that!" I insisted.
"Do I not seem so?" she asked, smiling.
"Eighteen at most-- save for the-- sadness-- in your eyes that now and then surprises me-- if it be sadness that I read there."
"Perhaps it is the wisdom I have learned-- a knowledge that means sadness, Euan. Do my eyes betray it, then, so plainly?"
"Sometimes," I said, A faint sound from below arrested our attention.
Lois whispered:
"It is Mrs. Rannock weeping. She often weeps like that at night. And so would I, Euan, had I beheld the horrors which this poor thing was born to look upon-- God comfort her! Have you never heard how the destructives slew her husband, her baby, and her little sister eight years old? The baby lay in its cradle smiling up at its murderers. Even the cruel Senecas turned aside, forbearing to harm it. But one of Walter Butler's painted Tories spies it and bawls out: 'This also will grow to be a rebel!' And with that he speared the little smiling creature on his bayonet, tossed it, and caught it-- Oh, Euan-- Euan!" Shuddering, she flung her arm across her face as though to shut out the vision.
"That villainy," said I, "was done by Newberry or Chrysler, if I remember. And Newberry we caught and hung before we went to Westchester. I saw him hang with that wretched Lieutenant Hare. God! how we cheered by regiments marching back to camp!"
Through the intense stillness I could still hear the woman sobbing in the dark below.
"Lois-- little Lois," I whispered, touching her trembling arm with a hand quite as unsteady.
She dropped her arm from her face, looking up at me with eyes widened still in horror.
I said: "Do you then wonder that the thought of you, roaming these woods alone, is become a living dread to me, so that I think of nothing else?"
She smiled wanly, and sat thinking for a while, her pale face pressed between her hands. Presently she looked up.
"Are we so truly friends then, Euan? At the Spring Waiontha it almost seemed as though it could come true."
"You know it has come true."
"Do I?"
"Do you not know it, little Lois?"
"I seem to know it, somehow.... Tell me, Euan, does a true and deathless friendship with a man-- with you-- mean that I am to strip my heart of every secret, hiding nothing from you?"
"Dare you do it, Lois?" I said laughingly, yet thrilled with the candour of her words.
"I could not let you think me better than I am. That would be stealing friendship from you. But if you give it when you really know me-- that will be dear and wonderful----" She drew a swift breath and smiled.
Surprised, then touched, I met the winning honesty of her gaze in silence.
"Unless you truly know me-- unless you know to whom you give your friendship-- you can not give it rightly. Can you, Euan? You must learn all that I am and have been, Is not this necessary?"
"I-- I ask you nothing," I stammered. "All that I know of you is wonderful enough----" Suddenly the danger of the moment opened out before me, checking my very thoughts.
She laid both hands against her temple, pressing them there till her cheeks cooled. So she pondered for a while, her gaze remote. Then, looking fearlessly at me:
"Euan, I am of that sad company of children born without name. I have lately dared to guess who was my father. Presently I will tell you who he was." Her grey and troubled eyes gazed into space now, dreamily. "He died long since. But my mother is living. And I believe she lives near Catharines-town to-day!"
"What! Why do you think so?" I exclaimed, astounded.
"Is not the Vale Yndaia there, near Catharines-town?"
"Yes. But why----"
"Then listen, Euan. Every year upon a certain day-- the twelfth of May-- no matter where I chance to be, always outside my door I find two little beaded moccasins. I have had them thirteen times in thirteen years. And every year-- save the last two-- the moccasins have been made a little larger, as though to fit my growing years. Now, for the last two years, they have remained the same in size, fitting me perfectly. And-- I never yet have worn them more than to fit them on and take them off."
"Why?" I asked vaguely.
"I save them for my journey."
"What journey?"
"The long trail through the Long House-- straight through it, Euan, to the Western Door. That is the trail I dream of."
"Who leaves these strange moccasins at your threshold every year?"
"I do not know."
"From where do you suppose they come?" I asked, amazed.
"From Catharines-town."
"Do you believe your mother sends them?"
"Oh, Euan, I know it now! Until two years ago I did not understand. But now I know it!"
"Why are you so certain Lois? Is any written message sent with them?"
"Always within one of each pair of moccasins is sewed a strip of silver birch. Always the message written is the same; and this is what is always written:
"Swift moccasins for little feet as swift against the day that the long trail is safe. Then, in the Vale Yndaia, little Lois, seek her who bore you, saved you, lost you, but who love you always.
"Pray every day for him who died in the Regiment de la Reine.
"Pray too for her who waits for you, in far Yndaia."
"What a strange message!" I exclaimed.
"I must heed it," she said under her breath. "The trail is open, and my hour is come."
"But, Lois, that trail means death!"
"Your army makes it safe at last. And now the time is come when I must follow it."
"Is that why you have followed us?"
"Yes, that is why. Until that night in the storm at Poundridge-town I had never learned where the Vale Yndaia lay. Month after month I haunted camps, asking for information concerning Yndaia and the Regiment de la Reine. But of Yndaia I learned nothing, until the Sagamore informed me that Yndaia lay near Catharines-town. And, learning you were of the army, and that the army was bound thither, I followed you."
"Why did you not tell me this at Poundridge? You should have camped with us," I said.
"Because of my fear of men-- except red men. And I had already quite enough of your Lieutenant Boyd."
I looked at her seriously; and she comprehended the unasked questions that were troubling me.
"Shall I tell you more? Shall I tell you how I have learned my dread of men-- how it has been with me since my foster parents found me lying at their door strapped to a painted cradle-board?"
"You!"
"Aye; that was my shameful beginning, so they told me afterward-- long afterward. For I supposed they were my parents-- till two years ago. Now shall I tell you all, Euan? And risk losing a friendship you might have given in your ignorance of me?"
Quick, hot, unconsidered words flew to my lips-- so sweet and fearless were her eyes. But I only muttered:
"Tell me all."
"From the beginning, then-- to scour my heart out for you! So, first and earliest my consciousness awoke to the sound of drums. I am sure of this because when I hear them it seems as though they were the first sounds that I ever heard.... And once, lately, they were like to be the last.... And next I can remember playing with a painted mask of wood, and how the paint tasted, and its odour.... Then, nothing more can I remember until I was a little child with-- him I thought to be my father. I may not name him. You will understand presently why I do not."
She looked down, pulling idly at the thrums along her beaded leggins.
"I told you I was near your age-- twenty. But I do not really know how old I am, I guess that I am twenty-- thereabouts."
"You look sixteen; not more-- except the haunting sorrow----"
"I can remember full that length of time.... I must be twenty, Euan. When I was perhaps seven years old-- or thereabout-- I went to school-- first in Schenectady to a Mistress Lydon; where were a dozen children near my age. And pretty Mistress Lydon taught us A-- B-- C and manners-- and nothing else that I remember now. Then for a long while I was at home-- which meant a hundred different lodgings-- for we were ever moving on from place to place, where his employment led him, from one house to another, staying at one tavern only while his task remained unfinished, then to the road again, north, south, west, or east, wherever his fancy sped before to beckon him.... He was a strange man, Euan."
"Your foster father?"
"Aye. And my foster mother, too, was a strange woman."
"Were they not kind to you?"
"Y-es, after their own fashion. They both were vastly different to other folk. I was fed and clothed when anyone remembered to do it, And when they had been fortunate, they sent me to the nearest school to be rid of me, I think. I have attended many schools, Euan-- in Germantown, in Philadelphia, in Boston, in New York. I stayed not long in school at New York because there our affairs went badly. And no one invited us in that city-- as often we were asked to stay as guests while the work lasted-- not very welcome guests, yet tolerated."
"What was your foster father's business?"
"He painted portraits.... I do not know how well he painted. But he cared for nothing else, except his wife. When he spoke at all it was to her of Raphael, and of Titian, and particularly of our Benjamin West, who had his first three colours of the Indians, they say."
"I have heard so, too."
She nodded absently, fingering her leggin-fringe; then, with a sudden, indrawn breath:
"We were no more than roving gypsies, you see, living from hand to mouth, and moving on, always moving from town to town, remaining in one place while there were portraits to paint-- or tavern-signs, or wagons-- anything to keep us clothed and fed. Then there came a day in Albany when matters mended over night, and the Patroon most kindly commanded portraits of himself and family. It started our brief prosperity.
"Other and thrifty Dutchmen now began to bargain for their portraits. We took an old house on Pearl Street, and I was sent to school at Mrs. Pardee's Academy for young ladies as a day pupil, returning home at evening. About that time my foster mother became ill. I remember that she lay on a couch all day, watching her husband paint. He and his art were all she cared for. Me she seldom seemed to see-- scarcely noticed when she saw me-- almost never spake to me, and there were days and weeks, when I saw nobody in that silent house, and sat at meat alone-- when, indeed, anyone remembered I was a hungry, growing child, and made provision for me.
"Schoolmates, at first, asked me to their homes. I would not go because I could not ask them to my home in turn. And so grew up to womanhood alone, and shy, and silent among my fellows; alone at home among the shadows of that old Dutch house; ever alone. Always a haunted twilight seemed to veil the living world from me, save when I walked abroad along the river, thinking, thinking.
"Yet, in one sense I was not alone, Euan, for I was fanciful; and roamed accompanied by those bright visions that unawakened souls conjure for company; companioned by all creatures of the mind, from saint to devil. Ai-me! For there were moments when I would have welcomed devils, so that they rid me of my solitude, at hell's own price!"
She drew a long, light breath, smiled at me; then:
"My foster mother died. And when she died the end also began for him. I was taken from my school. So dreadfully was he broken that for months he lay abed never speaking, scarcely eating. And all day long during those dreary months I sat alone in that hushed house of death.
"Debt came first; then sheriffs; then suddenly came this war upon us. But nothing aroused him from his lethargy; and all day long he brooded there in silence, day after day, until our creditors would endure no longer, and the bailiff menaced him. Confused and frightened, I implored him to leave the city-- jails seeming to me far more terrible than death-- and at last persuaded him to the old life once more.
"So, to avoid a debtor's prison, we took the open road again. But war was ravishing the land; there was no work for him to do. We starved slowly southward, day by day, shivered and starved from town to town across the counter.
"Near to a camp of Continental troops there was a farm house. They took me there as maid-at-all-work, out of charity, I think. My father wandered over to the camp, and there, God alone knows why, enlisted-- I shall not tell you in what regiment. But it was Continental Line-- a gaunt, fierce, powder-blackened company, disciplined with iron. And presently a dreadful thing befell us. For one morning before sunrise, as I stood scouring the milk-pans by the flare of a tallow-dip, came to me a yawning sergeant of this same regiment to tell me that, as my foster father was to be shot at sunrise, therefore, he desired to see me. And I remember how he yawned and yawned, this lank and bony sergeant, showing within his mouth his yellow fangs!
"Oh, Euan! When I arrived, my foster father-- who I then supposed was my own father-- lay in a tent a condemned deserter, seeming not even to care, or to comprehend his dreadful plight. All the defence he ever made, they say was that he had tired of dirty camps and foolish drums, and wished to paint again. Euan, it was terrible. He did not understand. He was a visionary-- a man of endless silences, dreamy of eye, gentle and vague of mind-- no soldier, nor fitted to understand a military life at all.
"I remember the smoky lantern burning red within the tent, and the vast shadows it cast; and how he stood there, looking tranquilly at nothing while I, frightened, sobbed on his breast. 'Lois,' he said, smiling, 'there is a bright company aloft, and watching me. Raphael and Titian are of them. And West will come some day.' And, 'God!' he murmured, wonderingly, 'What fellowship will be there! What knowledge to be acquired a half hour hence-- and leave this petty sphere to its own vexed and petty wrangling, its kings and congresses, and its foolish noise of drums.'
"For a while he paid me no attention, save in an absent-minded way to pat my arm and say, 'There, there, child! There's nothing to it-- no, not anything to weep for. In less than half an hour my wife and I will be together, listening while Raphael speaks-- or Christ, perhaps, or Leonardo.'
"Twice the brigade chaplain came to the tent, but seeing me retired. The third time he appeared my foster father said: 'He's come to talk to me of Christ and Raphael. It is pleasant to hear his kind assurance that the journey to them is a swift one, done in the twinkling of an eye.... So-- I will say good-bye. Now go, my child.'
"Locked in my desperate embrace, his wandering gaze came back and met my terror-stricken eyes. And after another moment a slow colour came into his wasted face. 'Lois,' he said, 'before I go to join that matchless company, I think you ought to know that which will cause you to grieve less for me.... And so I tell you that I am not your father.... We found you at our door in Caughnwagha, strapped to a Seneca cradle-board. Nor had you any name. We did not seek you, but, having you so, bowed to God's will and suffered you to remain with us. We strove to do our duty by you---- ' His vague gaze wandered toward the tent door where the armed guard stood, terrible and grim and ragged. Then he unloosened my suddenly limp arms about him, muttering to himself of something he'd forgotten; and, rummaging in his pockets found it presently-- a packet laced in deerskin. 'This,' he said, 'is all we ever knew of you. It should be yours. Good-bye.'
"I strove to speak, but he no longer heard me, and asked the guard impatiently why the Chaplain tarried. And so I crept forth into the dark of dawn, more dead than living. And presently the rising sun blinded my tear-drowned eyes, where I was kneeling in a field under a tall tree.... I heard the dead-march rolling from the drums, and saw them passing, black against the sunrise.... Then, filing slowly as the seconds dragged, a thousand years passed in processional during the next half hour-- ending in a far rattle of musketry and a light smoke blowing east across the fields----"
She passed her fingers across her brow, clearing it of the clinging curls.
"They played a noisy march-- afterward. I saw the ragged ranks wheel and manoeuvre, stepping out Briskly to the jolly drums and fifes.... I stood by the grave while the detail filled it cheerily.... Then I went back to the farm house, through the morning dew and sunshine.
"When I had opened my packet and had understood its contents, I made of my clothes a bundle and took the highway to ask of all the world where lay the road to the vale Yndaia, and where might be found the Regiment de la Reine. Wherever was a camp of soldiers, there I loitered, asking the same question, day after day, month after month. I asked of Indians-- our Hudson guides, and the brigaded White Plains Indians. None seemed to know-- or if they did they made no answer. And the soldiers did not know, and only laughed, taking me for some camp wanton----"
Again she passed her slender hand slowly across her eyes, shaking her head.
"That I am not wholly bad amazes me at times.... I wonder if you know how hunger tampers with the will? I mean more than mere hunger; I mean that dreadful craving never completely satisfied-- so that the ceaseless famine gnaws and gnaws while the sick mind still sickens, brooding over what the body seems to need of meat and drink and warmth-- day after day, night after night, endless and terrible." She flushed, but continued calmly: "I had nigh sold myself to some young officer-- some gay and heedless boy-- a dozen times that winter-- for a bit of bread-- and so I might lie warm.... The army starved at Valley Forge.... God knows where and how I lived and famished through all that bitter blackness.... An artillery horse had trodden on my hip where I lay huddled in a cow-barn under the straw close to the horses, for the sake of warmth. I hobbled for a month.... And so ill was I become in mind as well as body that had any man been kind-- God knows what had happened! And once I even crept abroad meaning to take what offered. Do you deem me vile, Euan?"
"No-- no-- " I could not utter another word.
She sighed, gazing at space.
"And the cold! Well-- this is July, and I must try to put it from my mind. But at times it seems to be still in my bones-- deep bitten to the very marrow. Ai-me! I have seen two years of centuries. Their scars remain."
She rocked slightly forward and backward where she sat, her fingers interlaced, twisting and clenching with her memories.
"Ai-me! Hunger and cold and men! Hunger and-- men. But it was solitude that nigh undid me. That was the worst of all-- the endless silence."
The rain now swept the roof of bark above us, gust after gust swishing across the eaves. Beyond the outer circle of the lantern light a mouse moved, venturing no nearer.
"Lois?"
She lifted her head. "All that is ended now. Strive to forget."
She made no response.
"Ended," I said firmly. "And this is how it ends. I have with my solicitor, Mr. Simon Hake, of Albany, two thousand pounds hard sterling. How I first came by it I do not know. But Guy Johnson placed it there for me, saying that it was mine by right. Now, today, I have written to Mr. Hake a letter. In this letter I have commanded some few trifles to be bought for you, such as all women naturally require "Euan!" she exclaimed sharply.
"I will not listen!" said I excitedly. "Do you listen now to me, for I mean to have my way with you-- say what you may----"
"I know-- I know-- but you have done too much already----"
"I have done nothing! Listen! I have bespoken trifles of no value-- nothing more-- stockings, and shifts, and stays, and powder-puffs, and other articles----"
"I will not suffer this!" she said, an angry colour in her cheeks.
"You suffer now-- for lack even of handkerchiefs! I must insist----"
"Euan! My shifts and stays and stockings are none of your affair!" she answered hotly.
"I make them mine!"
"No-- nor is it your privilege to offer them!"
"My-- what?"
"Privilege!" she said haughtily, flushing clear to her curly hair; and left me checked. She added: "What you offer is impertinence-- however kindly meant. No friendship warrants it, and I refuse."
I know not what it was-- perhaps my hurt and burning silence under the sudden lash of her rebuff-- but presently I felt her hand steal over mine and tighten. And looked up, scowling, to see her eyes brimming with tears and merriment.
"How much of me must you have, Euan? Even my privacy and pride? You have given me friendship; you have clothed me to your fancy. You have had scant payment in exchange-- only a poor girl's gratitude. What have I left to offer in return if you bestow more gifts? Give me no more-- so that you take from me no more than-- gratitude."
"Comrades neither give nor take, Lois. What they possess belongs to both in common."
"I know-- it is so said-- but-- you have had of me for all your bounty only my thanks-- and----" she smiled tremulously, "---- a wild rose-bud. And you have given so much-- so much-- and I am far too poor to render----"
"What have I asked of you!" I said impatiently.
"Nothing. And so I am the more inclined to give-- I know not what."
"Shall I tell you what to offer me? Then offer me the privilege of giving. It is the rarest gift within your power."
She sat looking at me while the soft colour waned and deepened in her cheeks.
"I-- give," she said in a voice scarce audible.
"Then," said I, very happily, "I am free to tell you that I have commanded for your comfort a host of pretty things, and a big box of wood and brass, with a stout hide outside, to keep your clothing in! The lady of Captain Cresson, of the levies, has a noble one. Yours is its mate. And into yours will fit your gowns and shoon, patches and powder, and the hundred articles which every woman needs by day and night. Also I've named you to Mr. Hake, so that, first writing for me upon a slip of paper that I may send it to him-- then writing your request to him, you may make draughts for what you need upon our money, which now lies with him. Do you understand me, Lois? You will need money when the army leaves."
Her head moved slightly, acquiescent.
"So far so good, then. Now, when this army moves into the wilderness, and when I go, and you remain, you will have clothing that befits you; you will have means to properly maintain you; and I shall send you by batteau to Mr. Hake, who will find lodging suitable for you-- and be your friend, and recommend you to his friends not only for my sake, but, when he sets his eyes on you, for your own sake." I smiled, and added:
"Hiero! Little rosy-throated pigeon of the woods! Loskiel has spoken!"
Now, as I ended, this same and silly wild-thing fell silently a-crying; and never had I dreamed that any maid could be so full o' tears, when by all rights she should have sat dimpling there, happy and gay, and eager as I.
Out o' countenance again, and vexed in my mind, I sat silent, fidgetting, made strange and cold and awkward by her tears. The warm flush of self-approval chilled in my heart; and by and by a vague resentment grew there.
"Euan?" she ventured, lifting her wet eyes.
"What?" said I ungraciously.
"H-- have you a hanker? Else I use my scandalous skirt again----"
And the next instant we both were laughing there, she still in tears, I with blithe heart to see her now surrender at discretion, with her grey eyes smiling at me through a starry mist of tears, and the sweet mouth tremulous with her low-voiced thanks.
"Ai-me!" she said. "What manner of boy is this, to hector me and have his will? And now he sits there laughing, and convinced that when the army marches I shall wear his finery and do his bidding. And so I shall-- if I remain behind."
"Lois! You can not go to Catharines-town! That's flat!"
"I've wandered hungry and ragged for two years, asking the way. Do you suppose I have endured in vain? Do you suppose I shall give up now?"
"Lois!" I said seriously, "if it is true that the Senecas hold any white captives, their liberation is at hand. But that business concerns the army. And I promise you that if your mother be truly there among those unhappy prisoners she shall be brought back safely from the Vale Yndaia. I will tell Major Parr of this; he shall inform the General. Have no fear or doubt, dear maid. If she is there, and human power can save her, then is she saved already, by God's grace."
She said in a quiet voice:
"I must go with you. And that is why-- or partly why-- I asked you here tonight. Find me some way to go to Catharines-town. For I must go!"
"Why not inquire of me the road to hell?" I asked impatiently. She said between her teeth:
"Oh, any man might show me that. And guide me, too. Many have offered, Euan."
"What!"
"I ask your pardon. Two years of camps blunts any woman's speech."
"Lois," said I uneasily, "why do you wish to go to Catharines-town, when an armed force is going?"
She sat considering, then, in a low, firm voice:
"To tell you why, is why I asked you here.... And first I must show you what my packet held.... Shall I show you, Euan?"
"Surely, little comrade."
She drew the packet from her bosom, unlaced the thong, unrolled the deer-hide covering.
"Here is a roll of bark," she said. "This I have never had interpreted. Can you read it for me, Euan?"
And there in the lantern light I read it, while she looked down over my shoulder.
"KADON!
"Aesa-yat-yen-enghdon, Lois! "Etho! [And here was painted a white dog lying dead, its tongue hanging out sideways.] "Hen-skerigh-watonte. "Jatthon-ten-yonk, Lois! "Jin-isaya-dawen-ken-wed-e-wayen. [Here was drawn in outline the foot and claws of a forest lynx.] "Niyi-eskah-haghs, na-yegh-nyasa-kenra-dake, niya-wennonh!" [Then a white symbol.]
For a long time I gazed at the writing in shocked silence. Then I asked her if she suspected what was written there in the Canienga dialect.
"I never have had it read. Indians refuse, shake their heads, and look askance at me, and tell me nothing; interpreters laugh at me, saying there is no meaning in the lines. Is there, Euan?"
"Yes," I said.
"You can interpret?"
"Yes."
"Will you?"
I was silent, pondering the fearful meaning which had been rendered plainer and more hideous by the painted symbols.
"It has to do with the magic of the Seneca priesthood," I muttered. "Here is a foul screed-- and yet a message, too, to you."
Then, with an effort I found courage to read, as it was written:
"I speak! Thou, Lois, mightest have been destroyed! Thus! (Here the white dog.) But I will frustrate their purpose. Keep listening to me, Lois. That which has befallen you we place it here (or, 'we draw it here'-- i. e., the severed foot and claws of a lynx). Being born white (literally, 'being born having a white neck'), this happened." And the ghastly sign of Leshi ended it.
"But what does it all signify?" she asked, bewildered.
And even as she spoke, out of the dull and menacing horror of the symbols, into my mind, leaped terrible comprehension.
I said coolly: "It must have been Amochol-- and his Erie sorcerers! How came you in Catharines-town?"
"I? In Catharines-town!" she faltered. "Was I, then, ever there?"
I pointed at the drawing of the dead white dog.
"Somebody saved you from that hellish sacrifice. I tell you it is plain enough to read. The rite is practiced only by the red sorcerers of the Senecas.... Look! It was because your 'neck' was 'white'! Look again! Here is the symbol of the Cat-People-- the Eries-- the acolytes of Amochol-- here! This spread lynx-pad with every separate claw extended! Yet, it is drawn severed-- in symbol of your escape. Lois! Lois! It is plain enough. I follow it all-- almost all-- nearly-- but not quite----"
I hesitated, studying the bark intently, pausing to look at her with a new and keenly searching question in my gaze.
"You have not shown me all," I said.
"All that is written in the Iroquois tongue. But there were other things in the packet with this bark letter." She opened it again upon her lap.
"Here is a soldier's belt-buckle," she said, offering it to me for my inspection.
It was made of silver and there were still traces of French gilt upon the device.
"Regiment de la Reine," I read. "What regiment is that, Lois? I'm sure I've heard of it somewhere. Oh! Now I remember. It was a very celebrated French regiment-- cut all to pieces at Lake George by Sir William Johnson in '55. This is an officer's belt-buckle."
"Was the regiment, then, totally destroyed?"
"Utterly. In France they made the regiment again with new men and new officers, and call it still by the same celebrated name."
"You say Sir William Johnson's men cut it to pieces-- the Regiment de la Reine?" she asked.
"His Indians, British and Provincials, left nothing of it after that bloody day."
She sat thoughtful for a while, then, bestirring herself, drew from the deerhide packet a miniature on ivory, cracked across, and held together only by the narrow oval frame of gold.
There was no need to look twice. This man, whoever he might be, was this girl's father; and nobody who had ever seen her and this miniature could ever doubt it.
She did not speak, nor did I, conscious that her eyes had never left my face and must have read my startled mind with perfect ease.
Presently I turned the portrait over. There was a lock of hair there under the glass-- bright, curly hair exactly like her own. And at first I saw nothing else. Then, as the glass-backed locket glanced in the lantern-light, I saw that on the glass something had been inscribed with a diamond. This is what I read, written across the glass:
"Jean Coeur a son coeur cheri."
I looked up at her.
"Jean Coeur," I repeated. "That is no name for a man----" Suddenly I remembered, years ago-- years and years since-- hearing Guy Johnson cursing some such man. Then in an instant all came back to me; and she seemed to divine it, for her small hand clutched my arm and her eyes were widening as I turned to meet them.
"Lois," I said unsteadily, "there was a man called Jean Coeur, deputy to the adventurer, Joncaire. Joncaire was the great captain who all but saved this Western Continent to France. Captain Joncaire was feared, detested, but respected by Sir William Johnson because he held all Canada and the Hurons and Algonquins in the hollow of his hand, and had even gained part of the Long House-- the Senecas. His clever deputy was called Jean Coeur. Never did two men know the Indians as these two did."
I thought a moment, then: "Somewhere I heard that Captain Joncaire had a daughter. But she married another man-- one Louis de Contrecoeur----" I hesitated, glanced again at the name scratched on the glass over the lock of hair, and shook my head.
"Jean Coeur-- Louis de Contrecoeur. The names scarce hang together-- yet----"
"Look at this!" she whispered in a low, tense voice, and laid a bit of printing in my hand.
It was a stained and engraved sheet of paper-- a fly-leaf detached from a book of Voltaire. And above the scroll-encompassed title was written in faded ink: "Le Capitaine Vicomte Louis Jean de Contrecoeur du Regiment de la Reine." And under that, in a woman's fine handwriting: "Mon coeur, malgre; mon coeur, se rendre a Contrecoeur, dit Jean Coeur; coeur contre coeur."
"That," she said, "is the same writing that the birch bark bears, sewed in my moccasins."
"Then," I said excitedly, "your mother was born Mademoiselle Joncaire, and you are Lois de Contrecoeur!"
She sat with eyes lowered, fingering the stained and faded page. After a moment she said:
"I wrote to France-- to the Headquarters of the Regiment de la Reine-- asking about my-- father."
"You had an answer?"
"Aye, the answer came.... Merely a word or two.... The Vicomte Louis Jean de Contrecoeur fell at Lake George in '55----" She lifted her clear eyes to mine. "And died-- unmarried."
A chill passed through me, then the reaction came, taking me by the throat, setting my veins afire.
"Then-- by God!" I stammered. "If de Contrecoeur died unmarried, his child shall not!"
"Euan! I do not credit what they wrote. If my father married here perhaps they had not heard."
"Lois! Dearest of maids-- whichever is the truth I wish to marry you!"
But she stopped her ears with both palms, giving me a frightened look; and checked, but burning still, I stared at her.
"Is that then all you are?" she asked. "A wisp of tow to catch the first spark that flies? A brand ever smouldering, which the first breath o' woman stirs to flame?"
"Never have I loved before----"
"Love! Euan, are you mad?"
We both were breathing fast and brokenly.
"What is it then, if it be not love!" I asked angrily.
"What is it?" she repeated slowly. Yet I seemed to feel in her very voice a faint, cool current of contempt. "Why, it is what always urges men to speak, I fancy-- their natural fire-- their easily provoked emotions.... I had believed you different."
"Did you not desire my friendship?" I asked in hot chagrin.
"Not if it be of this kind, Euan."
"You would not have me love you?"
"Love!" And the fine edge of her contempt cut clean. "Love!" she repeated coolly. "And we scarcely know each other; have never passed a day together; have never broken bread; know nothing, nothing of each other's minds and finer qualities; have awakened nothing in each other yet except emotions. Friendships have their deeps and shallows, but are deathless only while they endure. Love hath no shallows, Euan, and endures often when friendship dies.... I speak, having no knowledge. But I believe it. And, believing nobly of true love-- in ignorance of it, but still in awe-- and having been assailed by clamours of a shameful passion calling itself love-- and having builded in my heart and mind a very lofty altar for the truth, how can I feel otherwise than sorry that you spoke-- hotly, unthinkingly, as you did to me?"
I was silent.
She rose, lifted the lantern, laid open the trap-door.
"Come," she whispered, beckoning.
I followed her as she descended, took the lantern from her hand, glanced at the shadowy heap, asleep perhaps, on the corner settle, then walked to the door and opened it. A thousand, thousand stars were sparkling overhead.
On the sill she whispered:
"When will you come again?"
"Do you want me?" I said sullenly.
She made no answer for a moment; suddenly she caught my hand and pressed it, crushing it between both of hers; and turning I saw her almost helpless with her laughter.
"Oh, what an infant have I found in this tall gentleman of Morgan's corps!" said she. "A boy one moment and a man the next-- silly and wise in the same breath-- headlong, headstrong, tender, and generous, petty and childish, grave and kind-- the sacred and wondrous being, in point of fact, known to the world as man! And now he asks, with solemn mien and sadly ruffled and reproachful dignity whether a poor, friendless, homeless, nameless girl desires his company again!"
She dropped my hand, caught at her skirt's edge, and made me a mocking reverence.
"Dear sir," she said, "I pray you come again to visit me tomorrow, while I am mending regimental shirts at tuppence each----"
"Lois!" I said sadly. "How can you use me so!"
She began to laugh again.
"Oh, Euan, I can not endure it if you're solemn and sorry for yourself----"
"That is too much!" I exclaimed, furious, and marched out, boiling, under the high stars. And every star o' them, I think, was laughing at the sorriest ass who ever fell in love.
Nevertheless, that night I wrote her name in my letter to Mr. Hake; and the ink on it was scarce sanded when an Oneida runner had it and was driving his canoe down the Mohawk River at a speed that promised to win for him the bonus in hard money which I had promised for a swift journey and a swift return.
And far into the July morning I talked with the Sagamore of Amochol and of Catharines-town; and he listened while he sat tirelessly polishing his scalping-knife and hatchet.